I THINK SOME PEOPLE ARE PUT ONTO THIS EARTH TO BE ALONE. I WONDER IF I AM ONE OF THEM. IT' S HARD TO SAY FOR SURE. I GET OVERWHELMING FEELINGS SOMETIMES THAT I JUST DON'T BELONG HERE. BUT I PUSH ON DOING THE BEST THAT I CAN. MY RELATIONSHIPS SUFFER BECAUSE OF THIS. I ALMOST FEEL LIKE I COULD BE IN A CROWD OF A THOUSAND PEOPLE AND STILL BE ALONE. IT'S NOT REALLY A BAD FEELING THOUGH. IT'S LIKE THERE IS JUST THIS SIDE OF ME THAT IS FOREVER RESERVED JUST FOR ME(AND GOD, WHOM EVER THAT MAY BE) I GUESS I'M A LONER WITH A PURPOSE. TO BE ALONE, AND WONDER. I HAVE THESE BEAUTIFUL THOUGHTS MAN. I MEAN JUST ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL MAN. AMAZING THINGS THAT SOMETIMES I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN. IT'S LIKE A GIFT. PLEASE RESPOND
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HONEST ENGINE
Cleveland
  • I too think that I am meant to be alone.
    I feel strongest when I am alone and sometimes the easiest way t be alone is to go in the deepest, thickest part of the crowd where you are not seen though for me it does not feel as good as actually being truly alone.
    My thoughts are clearer , and you are right also nicer, when I am alone.

    I truly believe that everybody (even the non-loner) should keep something of themselves to themselves. I view it as the "core energy" or the "core light". Something that can never be exposed. It is not about secrets or anything like this to me it is about life energy that cannot, or is it should not, be exposed to the elements.
    • "...life energy that cannot/ should not be exposed to the elements"

      care to elaborate on that?

      everything comes down to energy, including the elements..so how can you separate the 'life/ core energy/ light" as you put it from anything?

      i've heard about this thing before, but it never really resonated with me..my reasoning is that a person who has no fear whatsoever will have nothing whom s/he doesn't want to expose to anyone. in other words, s/he will have nothing to hide/ to keep away from others.
      • Tough one. How to elaborate?
        I guess just like a flame that cannot be expose to the wind, or like a white cloth that cannot be handled by many without becoming something else I feel that the "core energy" the source of who we are is a "sacred" (I don't like using this word) source that should not be exposed. It is so perfect that it cannot handle the harshness and crudeness of being revealed. No relationship is so perfect or so pure that it will not damage it. No humam communication is so pure that it should be exposed to it. People are just people, they have their own thoughts, their own feelings, their own hang ups. In any relationship there are fights, disagreements, resentments or something and this "core energy" can never be exposed to this....That's just the way I feel.

        It sounds so corny...but I do really believe it, and I am not typically a corny person. It just comes across that way because I cannot find a better way to express it.

        For me this is the feeling that makes me feel best. I feel at my strongest and happpiest.
  • Yes. Absolutely. Everything you said, happily alone in a crowd, an island apart from the masses, ditto, yepper, Yes.

    And I have friends but they don't get to invade my Inner Space. They don't get beyond the final boundaries at all. What's mine is Mine.

    And it's weird because now and then I do get lonely, and I crave a connection with someone on a romantic level, and I have anxiety, and I wonder why I have to be so different and so difficult.

    But then I start to imagine having a partner, and somebody in my life - All the time - and somebody in my space - All the time - and I just can't do that, no way, I go nuts. I get over the loneliness real fast once I consider the alternative.

    I cannot imagine not having solitude regularly. I cannot imagine having to be around another person 24/7 without losing my mind completely. I have dogs and can't imagine being without them. But People? No.

    Call me Quasimodo but Give me Sanctuary.
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    Sometimes ( I know it's crazy, but so I am.)
    Sometimes I think, that in a previous exhistance, I must have really pissed my Mother God off something fierce, so she sent me here, a sort fo Cosmic standing in the corner, and when the end of time comes, me and mom are gonna have a long, long talk.
    • I am also a loner and have same feeling. However from what i have understood in me is we are afraid of our own selves. We are just trying our best to be cynosures without acting on it. Its the ego in me which is so big that i dont say things to people because i am always scared and afraid of a negative answer.

      I would say its a problem in us. and we have to figure out what to be done.I just know one thing. Everything that we do or opt to do is a part of our habit which eventually comes from our behavior of acceptance of the issue and not challenging our own selves.

      I am one of you. still feel. lot needs to be done and learn.

      No offense.
  • I am a loner. I always have been. I'm just more comfortable being alone. I do get lonely but I can go to the store, have a little conversation with a sales clerk or another customer, and I'm just fine again. Other people can make you feel like you don't belong. Or that something is wrong with you. I no longer believe this. I don't "hate" people. I dislike them sometimes mainly because I don't believe they are being honest about themselves. Or they would rather be busy, busy, busy so they won't hear their own thoughts. It is amazing what comes into your mind when it's still and quiet. I would much rather be considered an antisocial loner than be a person who is actually incapable of spending even one hour by themself.
    To be alone and content, is the most freeing feeling for me. I can be who I'm meant to be. Why do we need other people to justify our existence? We were born and now we are here. If we are not meant to be alone, why does it feel so natural?
    • Yeah, I feel like that all the time. I have a few close friends, but we don't call each other on the phone. When we want to get in touch, make plans, etc, we communicate online, which means when I'm happy being alone at the time I wont be annoyed by a phone call. By just talking online, we are able to make plans to hang out and stuff without infringing on each other's alone time. Even so, out of a week I'd say on average I spend 4 - 5 days alone.

      I do not own a cell phone for this very reason. Well, I do, but only for emergency purposes. I couldn't see myself carrying one and talking to people all day long. I would lose my mind. I am happiest when I am free to be myself, my true self. I feel like I am the only one who can be truly accepting of myself.

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